I had written a different post based on my memories of the song “Ikhlas Tapi Jauh”.
On my way to the airport last Friday, I received the message that he didn’t survive his heart bypass surgery. Later that night, several more text messages came in and his niece Anis Lee, left an simple email in my inbox. She wrote, just to let you know…
I knew Encik Zubir. Not well, but I knew him. I would like to write a glowing tribute about this man, but I find that I could not bring myself to. He was kind and gentle, respectful and laidback, just exactly like how you would imagined him to be. Completely unpretentious and quietly supportive of us, of anyone really, who show even the tiniest interest in music. And the more I think about it, the more I believe that he would have liked me to say whatever I want to say about him in the simplest way possible, without any adornment or an embellished sense of nostalgia.
On what key? he asked me one day, when I asked him for the chords to ‘Lanchang Kuning’. He didn’t say no. He didn’t think it was trivia. He wanted to know on what key, so that he could give me something that I could use.
So I guess that’s what I wanted to say. He gave me something that I can use.
Thank you Encik Zubir, for the lessons. Thank you mostly for Doa, which has been my salve during those times when what I needed the most was prayers.
Sleep well under the grace of God. You are missed.
Ku sebut nama Mu
Biar susah sungguh
Mengingat Mu penuh seluruh
Panas suci bagai kerdip lilin
Di kelam sunyi
Aku hilang bentuk
Kembara di negeri asing
Pintu Mu ku ketuk
Aku tak bisa berpaling
I said your name
So that this pain heals
Though it is hard
Remembering You with all my heart and soul
(is) Warm and aglow like the flicker of a candle
On a quiet balmy night
I lost myself
A stranger travelling in this strange land
Here I am knocking on Your door
And I can no longer turn my face away (from You)